THIS ENTIRE YEAR I’ve been banging my head against the wall trying to make sense of things that don’t. How do I balance fatherhood and my love of comedy? How do I work and pursue my dream? How do I pursue my dream but focus on my family? If you’re a working professional in any field, you might find yourself in the same dilemma. And it SUCKS to know all the things you want to do and all the things you want to be but not know how to put them together.
The theme of this year (for me) was “Walk Towards Your Values.” I wish I could say I dived nose first into all the right decisions but, like anyone throwing spaghetti at the wall, I found myself in a vestibule of false starts. It never felt right. A friend of mine gave me the push (I desperately needed) towards taking big risks.
My son was born and I left my job. That was a big risk.
I left my job with one fraction of a clue to what I was going to do or how I was going to survive. That was a big risk.
I recorded a comedy taping, I toured with comedy, I tried a new podcast, I left my comfort zone… those were all big risks.
And now it’s time for another one.
Starting in January of 2018 I’m starting my own indie comedy label called Finders Comedy. This isn’t anything crazy. This is just a place for me to call home. I love putting together comedy shows and I have a specific style and structure that works for me.
Earlier this year I was asking myself the hard questions. “Do I have what it takes to be a big-time comedian? Do I even care? What would my perfect world look like? Can I make that world a real thing?”
Those questions lead me to finding a balance between my comedy life and my personal life. The one thing I learned (very, very quickly) this year is that I love comedy (more than ever, as it turns out) and value time over everything. The time I had to be creative, to spend on family, to participate in my community and to find my footing is priceless.
This was my sabbatical.
The year wasn’t as professionally satisfying as it was spiritually. There’s something about a trial by fire that appeals to the willing participant. Like a warrior walking on hot coals.
It felt like everything was a whirlwind but now we’ve upgraded to full-blown tornado! We’re most likely moving, I am actively seeking meaningful work that really, really challenges me and I’m producing/performing on shows that I really care about. That’s everything a new dad / sexy comedian could ask for!
That’s why I started Finders Comedy. (Hashtag #FindTheFunny.) Finder’s is a little indie comedy promotion that’s going to give me the time and space to put on uniquely inclusive comedy shows. And of course, I’ll still be performing at my favourite clubs and fests (shout out to Absolute Comedy and Brantford Comedy Fest! xoxo!)
I want to live a big and small life. There are times you want the lights of the stage and laughter of the crowd and then there’s times where you want the light of a candle and the laughter of your child. I love comedy for comedy and family for family.
I’m incredibly lucky to have both.
Thank you for supporting me this far. That means you’ve gone through the growing pains with me and we’re getting taller and taller everyday.
I’m a firm believe that we can find what we’re looking for.
We just have to search.